How?

Somethings just tend you make you feel terrible, only when you thought you could begin to feel good. But then, handling such times, depends upon , how many such times have you handled before this . At times, I become rigid, do not let any little or big thing affect me in any way. But , now, I feel like letting myself free! How? .
I want to ease out for a change! Want to take everything lightly, and in my stride. And not just do it to show some pests that I can ignore them, but actually do it. Do it with sense and meaning.And also with reality. Say, how about smiling at a person you dislike, and actually mean to be nice?.. or may be, cook the dinner , and make it very very tasty!! And the only person to eat it , would be you...? Not that serving others is bad, but then, .. I want to do something just for myself! Just and only for myself!!
May be, dance in the rain like a frenzy creature, then take pictures and laugh at myself!
Or may be, drink a hell lot of sugar less coffee and be happy with it!! And making chocolate face packs , using then generously !! Gorging on dark chocs!! Dipping my full hands into buckets of chocolate sauce!!, then licking my own hands off!!! Then may be, mix the entire jar of strawberry jelly with vanilla ice cream!! Yummmmmyy!!
Then take numerous tours of my own home singing the same song over a million times!!
Then bathe in water with my favorite oils, and feel absolutely gorgeous! (i don't know what made me say that)....
Then with my hair half wet, I would put on my favorite black dress in light synthetic.. put on just a little lip gloss and some kohl "!! And then innocently stand in my veranda, munching on my snackies!!



So, that is HOW~!!!